Background

I have battled depression, and overcoming it has been a journey and a half. Everyone gets sad at times, and everyone has low moments in their lives. But depression is different. It is like living in a dark world, and no matter how much you try to get out, the chains hold you back. I remember, back to as young as 5 years old, thinking about killing myself. Throughout my life, I have been haunted by the spirit of rejection. I have experienced all types of rejection, from being bullied at school, to physical abuse, to sexual abuse, unrequited love, you name it. This of course had an effect on my sense of self-worth. When I was in year 12 of high school, I was blessed with the opportunity to attend a school where there was a professional counselor. I was also blessed with an amazing friend, who cared so much about me that she literally dragged me to the counselor's office to get help.  So I begrudgingly started my sessions, skipped a few, still attempted suicide, and eventually stopped going for therapy all together. 

As I later came to learn, through experience and also being a psychology student, the purpose of therapy is simply to give you tools of support to change your life in a positive direction, but at the end of the day, just like is the case with alcohol or drug addiction, the individual has to recognize that there is a problem, and they have to want the change themselves.

Coming from a society where mental health is stigmatized, that it's almost a crime to admit you are suffering from a mental illness, I must say that coming out of that darkness, with barely any help, I am pretty proud of myself for making it out the other end of the tunnel alive and kicking. Yet, it was not by my own strength, but by the grace and power of GOD, to whom all the glory belongs,and by whom I am an overcomer of depression.

Depression aside, as spiritual beings, we all crave for that wholeness of the soul, but unfortunate life experiences tear into our very beings and break us into little pieces of whom we are not. I believe that as products and parts of the Holy Spirit, we are infinite beings, and that the attainment of soul freedom - where we are in complete and utter peace and fulfillment within ourselves, our lives, and there after - is as near godliness as we can possibly get.

God is love, and God lives within us, therefore love is within us. Love is power, and as I have found love within me, I have found power. With this power, I collect and rebuild the broken pieces of my soul. I'm entitled to soul freedom. We all are.

This blog initially started as a chronicle of my journey as I overcome the residues of my dark past and chase absolute peace. Although I am in a mentally healthy place in my life now, I am nowhere near perfect. This blog will still chronicle my journey,but in a more positive light, as well as other life pleasures and lessons, mental health awareness, and stories from other people's life experiences.

Love and Light!